I'm so excited to have two of my guy cousins from Mexico in town in August. Well, they're actually my uncles, but it's complicated (it's a Mexican thing. lol), they are 21 and 22, so basically like my brothers. I couldn't be any happier they are coming during my freshman summer! They are from my mom's side, which only means one thing, they are INSANE! In a good way. x] I absolutely adore them! This means nights of pure adventures and wildness. It's crazy that I haven't seen them in years, but when we get together it's a party! All the time! I miss them so much! This also means SPANISH 24/7! I love it! David is so much like my brother; he's a complete computer nerd, but somehow he definitely managed to be the good looking one out of the both of them. hahaha, no, Cesar is also very adorable, but he's a bit more serious and hard-working.
Our family nickname for them is "Los Gatos" or Cats. They have dark hair, with the most amazing green eyes. I'm so jealous of that, considering my mom and grandma have green eyes. My brothers and I didn't get so lucky. errr. All I know is when they are in town, my phone and email won't be answered at all. This might be the last time I get to really spend time with my family before college. The downer on being Hispanic is that all my true family is so far away, but this completely makes up for that.
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very cute movie.
future home.
and the title is appropriate.
I am nervous about the complete change next school year will be. I've been looking up articles about Seattle and it is very different than Vegas. I hope it is a simple enough transition, but I am so happy to have found a buddy. Karla went to girls' state with me last summer. She's a psych/premed major, but still she'll be around. That has definitely calm me down a bit. I know my first night is going to be very rough as everyone else will have been in school for at least two weeks.
September is not too far away.
June 10, 2008. graduation day.
I woke up to a text message from Trevor, and I thought to myself "the last day I can call myself a pioneer." I had a breakfast with my grandma, and it honestly felt like time was being extra slow. Around noon, I started to get ready, and it still wasn't clicking. I headed towards the Orleans at 4; it's always windy on occassions! I saw Haddad! After a whole week! "Does anyone need help putting on their stuff? That's why I'm here! I love doing it!" The smile on his face made the entire night worthwhile. Standing in that hallway with Berna, Tayla, Brittany, Stina, and Crissy was the moment when I realized the small group of girls that I want to keep in touch with. The girls who have truly shaped who I am. Then as I was walking with JR I told him "This is it." He said "Yeah, it is." Bernadine touched me by what she said about our friendship, and of course, boys. My favorite line from Trevor's speech was "Well, my story...it's not over yet." That brought reassurance to ...us. I am very glad to have gotten to be a part of his high school chapter, and now his continuing chapters. I had already read Tayla's speech, but being in that moment and hearing it come from her, made it all the more emotional. I just couldn't cry because I realized I was suppose to go up next. Turning the tassels with Adam felt like the moment! When we all became graduates of Canyon Springs High School and the Leadership and Law Preparatory Academy.
As we walked into the lobby to pick up our diplomas, Mrs. Felkins was there. Tears were just running down Tayla's and Brittany's face. And then I saw Crissy crying, so that got me to tears too. Then another moment was being in the lobby with everyone hugging, crying, and looking around at the people who made my high school experience the most amazing one. Then the infamous corner crew was together again; that was the perfect ending.
And now the party. whew. Let's just say I had a great time! I got to freely hang out with Brittany S. Then Trev showed up. :D My friends got home safely, huge relief.
I love the class of 2008! I wish you all the best in the future!
FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The climax of my high school life went as I hoped it would. 05.10.08
I was very happy to see Tayla's glowing face with her incredible-looking date (my buddy) Ryan. I think they definitely pulled off that PURPLE AND GOLD. Bryan and Harlington was hysterical as usual as I was sandwhiched in between them. What would I do without them. Stephanie and Don looked so happy to be together and let me say I'm glad that no one got in their way. Marco was looking as sharp as ever! For the record, Marco is so hot, he had TWO dates. hahaha. Brittany Willis was crowned queen and when I saw her taking her royalty picture, I told Trevor, this is the night she will always remember. It was one of the highlights of the night. She looked absolutely beautiful and she deserved that crown more than anyone. JR didn't go and I was disappointed because out of all the people I've been mad at and loved at the same time, he wasn't there. My friendship with this one has grown a lot stronger because he has been a good person. I also missed Juano as he had a different group, but there's still other events we'll do together! Adam and Berna looked really good together. They were our dancing buddies.
The after party was absolutely what I figured it would be. Just teenagers being teenagers. I'm really glad that our two groups merged, because they were the people I wanted to spend prom with. Rob looked so good in his white tux. Poti was absolutely making me laugh. Daniel was no wherer to be found, but Jeremy was keeping Trevor company. Matt brought his girlfriend, Monica, and was one of the few people that chose a non-alcoholic drink.
This night was just for the good times and simple memories. It was worth it all. We have one month to go and I think we are all really going to stick it out together.
**pt. 2: the date. (private)
2007-2008 NASC Stateboard. <3
And it has been for the past two weeks.
I owe the stable, secure place where I am at to two people.
The newest and oldest (at the same time) person in my life is Patrick. There are things that we have in common that I didn't realize it before because I was stubborn to let my guard down. The day I finally talked to him, I felt that I was being honest with myself as with him. He gave me the push to be honest with Trevor most of all. I do miss him, as it was the first time we got to talk as friends. He and I haven't talked in so long that I want to make up for it. It was funny when he said "do you remember freshman p.e?" I completely forgot we had that class together. He has presented me with a trust and security that has only been done by one other person.
You have given me that strength and motivation to really get by, Trevor. The simplest of details that have happened are between you and me, even if I try to explain to my friends what happens. The laughs, the smirks, the thoughts, the questions, the honesty, the nerves I STILL feel around you can't be described. (a little less than freshman year of course.) They are kept between you and me. Trying to write them down just brings back the moments, but can't be quite expressed at all. The chance you have taken and lines you have finally broken make me realize that you are the most important person to me. You have led me to the place where I couldn't be more happy to be.
It is all coming together. This Thursday, I mail everything to American University. This is it. As to the question Juano asked me yesterday when we were at the Wynn, I don't know. I truly don't.
*editing later.
yes you are.
I think I've been through much more with you than I will ever in my lifetime. I would never take any of those moments back.
So I learned the lesson that you are just a phone call away. I needed to hear it from you that if anything is wrong I need to go to you. It's just so hectic with the amount of time we have left. It seems like each day just gets better with you.
It was weird sharing my student council after school life with you. A good weird of course. I was thinking that it's been such a long time since I've been in the studio. Your second home. Let's say we got people talking. hahahaha. They've never seen me around you, so it was a shocker. you're always welcomed though.
When we get married, can we own all the animals in the world? I am looking up pictures and I'm just crying my eyes out. I think we can have a house big enough for all of them right.
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I didn't get into Cornell or Harvard, yet some how I'm still content. I think American University just hit the spot, so I am fine for right now.
Sleeping in tomorrow. So goodnite. <3
go where ever now.
I really could careless at this point. Maybe my attitude will change later this week, but so far you haven't proven me wrong.
Let's just keep our cool.
now. let's get back to homework.
the thing that sparked the crappiness of this week can't be said unfortunately. So I am going to start off by saying that I think it is very shitty of you to have acted the way you did about what I wanted to do. I didn't think much of it until after we walked about of eb. The next day you acted like a jerk. After I sent you that text message I thought you would have wanted to prove me wrong, but you didn't. You were the one that said nothing. After all the times you have told me to speak up, you didn't. You walked right past me and didn't ask if I was okay. Instead your friend did. Then you ask about something as stupid as my date because I would tell you about that anyhow, right? Really. There are two reasons I didn't respond. One, why would you more concerned about my date, than why I wasn't acting the same towards you? And two, why would I tell you about something as a meaningless date, when you know you are the guy I think about? All I know is how I read it, obviously I don't know how you meant it. And when you hugged me, of course I didn't make an effort to acknowledge you. Then to find out that you were staring at the fact that your friend was talking to me was confusing. There are days I think our friendship is superficial.
Yet, all the good times are worth these moments. I do want to celebrate your birthday with you and I do want to spend my last days in high school knowing that I can go to you. Lately your words and actions, or actually lack of actions have been sharper, and really do cut, and hugs can't make up for that.
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The date was incredible obviously. If anyone knows the kid with I went with, they know he's a really cool guy. We had dinner at Gallagher's Steakhouse, I had fish. :D It was really good, the conversation was what I so wanted. He's an easy guy to talk to. We talked about anything and everything. We have just enough in common and the funniest things different. We then went to the FabFour Mania, which was an amazing show! I want the beatles' albums! That's the second thing I'm getting when I go to England. Before we got there, we were walking to go see the water show at the Bellagio. He had to go really bad. It was cute. So we were rushing, and someone stopped me to ask for directions. So I totally lost him. I kept walking, and I saw him standing there. One he looked super cute, then he came and grabbed my hand. I was confused. He then whispered, "there's some creepy guy, who's been following you". It was the most adorable thing. We finally got there. Then after the show, he took me home and it was a good night. It really was. It was simple, well thought out, and what I've always wanted a date to be like. I never thought the asshole would turn out to be so sweet. I guess perceptions do lie. The sad part is I think I missed out on a great guy because I had my head stuck on the original guy. I don't think I let myself get to know him enough. It is the subconscious comparing that I keep doing. Unfortunately, I didn't get to see if he had the three factors: music, photography, and writing. I don't think he does.
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Speaking of those three factors, I realized now more than ever that he does have them. I was talking to my madre, and it was clear. He does have them.
